I have always loved music, especially the creating of it.  As an extremely shy child growing up in a chaotic home; practicing scales, chords, and arpeggios on the piano gave me a sense of safety and structure. I hid behind the piano and it was the only place I felt free. My piano teacher back then was very old school. I learned all the usual Bach inventions, Beethoven sonatas and Mozart pieces. By the time I turned 17, I was done!! I didn't care about learning these dead white guy songs anymore. 

I always had the desire deep inside to sing, but there was this huge emotional and psychological block keeping my voice inside where it was safe. Singing has never come easy for me, though I knew I had it in my soul. I took years and years of voice lessons from various teachers. I had written several intense, emotional songs in my 20's but didn't quite have the courage to sing them in front of people. Even singing them when I was completely alone brought up feelings of shame and fear that I didn't understand. (Ask me for a link to my personal blog if you would like to read more on this!)

A Nashville based (at the time) producer reached out to me shortly after Covid and asked about working with me. That first week of recording was honestly hell! I had NO idea how much it took to record a vocal take that was worthy of being released into the world. I recorded over and over and over again. This processed helped me to not judge my voice as harshly. Yes, I had to ‘judge’ it to see where I could improve. But it started to just be part of the process instead of devastating me and crushing my self worth.

When I recorded Haunted Lullaby, my song about wanting to die as a kid, I just wept. Why was this my reality? But what a gift to be able to sing about it now. I made it out, and I won't settle for a mediocre life. I will share my songs about all I've been through. This is my reason.